Insulation from Life

December 8th, 2009, weighing 513lbs, I was set on the path toward surviving obesity. After losing 175 lbs in 18 months, I discovered that traveling this road back to a normal life would require much more than dieting! I was stuck! Frozen in fear of moving forward! I found that there are many dangerous obstacles and challenges along the way. Some might have been expected, but others come out of nowhere; how I deal with them will determine the end of my journey. You are welcome to join me as I explore the unknown terrain of life that lies before me.

Losing a lot of weight helps in some ways, but it is also very traumatic at times, in ways that most people cannot understand. It doesn't seem to make sense to me, and may even seem unreasonable to those who haven't walked in our shoes! As I see it: we didn't "insulate" ourselves with fat for "no reason" and now that a lot of our "insulation" is melting away, there are emotional issues, situations and varying amounts of fear that must be dealt with. We must discover new, healthy ways to deal with what threatens us or we will be doomed to replenish the "fat barrier" that served us quite well in keeping life "at arms length."

Maybe we should treat our emotions like a child treats new types of food on his plate; stir them around 'til we're sure what they are, rather than 'eating them' or forcing them down in order to please someone else!